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	2006.09.25 20.12 BACK IN THE BITCH I'm at Casey's (and kari) I just stuffed my ass with thanksgiving dinner for Steve's Birthday it was fun. Kari's asking me if i want wine but, I think wine taste like shit, so i didnt drink any of it. i should have the internet next friday so until then dont touch me cuz theres only one girl on my mind so piss up a rope Mood: full



	2005.09.06 01.22 shit hit the fan Well i guess you can say I'm fucked. i thought that i would never get in trouble i thought that i was above the law but boy was i wrong, I was at a going away party for katy who is going to scottland for college so we got pretty fucking drunk and i made some very poor choices and i wish i could do anything to take them back but i left my car in the villiger parking lot becuase i was way to drunk to drive so i put my beer and the bottle in my car then i relized i didnt have my cell phone with me so i could contact anyone do i went to pay phone to call my cell to see if anyone answered but no one did.... so i walked back to my car to look for more quarters and to see what time it was but as soon as i got there 2 cops pulled up because someone broke into a store or something on main street and just my luck right? so they searched my car and gave me a DWI even though i was even driving my car it was in the parking lot i was very madd so i got booked and they took my to jail which was not a pleasnt expirence for me in the slightest, i didnt know cops talked so much shit but o well i did what i should have and kept my mouth shut they didnt even prove i was drunk but i did have a beer and the bottle in my car so tommarrow is going to be a change for me im no longer drinking i mean at all i quit it was pulling me down hill i dont know whats going to happen to me all i know is tommarrow its going to read josh thompson DWI in the paper and my whole family is going to think the worst even thought its not as bad as it seems no i shouldnt have been drinking at all but i dont think i deserve a DWI when i wasnt even driving my car but ha just my luck hopefully they relized the truth im willing to take any punishment aslong as i can keep my job im going to turn my life around im going to be something great because i saw how shitty cops really are and now i dont want to be a state trooper because i cant be that big of an asshole to people I might just go for calarnary arts or something but whatever it is its going to make me a lot happier then being a pig well this is the worst time in my life and i hope it turns out ok Your convict friend Bona Mood: scared



	2005.08.31 13.33 sorry i havnt updated this in a while ive had a lot of things to do plus i have to make room for drinking and what not but ive lost intrest in tell everyone about my life becuase im not proud of it ive done a lot of things i shouldnt have but im doing ill get my head on right soon because im not going to suck at life like some of my peers i think im missing something in my life i just dont know what it is yet i hope when i find it cuz i know i will things will be better then just fine again god none of you have ne clue what im talking about but thats ok i love you all peace peace BONA



	2005.08.12 04.10 you know well what a night i had some good fun tonight i hung out with some old friends and drank some kestone ice which is not good but it sure does the trick im kinda drunk and i love to type when im drunk so neways i hung out with pete beck sophie and bruce tay i love those guys i havnt hung out with them forever neways it was awesome we cought up on some good old tymes hell yea troy bennette was there hes a good kid neways i get to see my mom on sat which i dont know what im going to go i think i might cry cuz i miss her so much but i dont know but neways i work from noon until 2 in the morning yEA a 14 hour day then i have to get up at 6 am to drive to the prison which is a 3 hour drive oh well i never sleep neways so it works im kinda nevrous to see her cuz i havnt seen her in like 6 months which is way to long im kinda madd at her but i havnt seen her in forever so i guess it doesnt matter but oh well i miss her like hell so i cant wait to see her plus i get to see me little brother and i love him to death if nething goes wrong im going to adopt him cuz i love him more then life itself so i hope to have a good time and marc peterson need to call me cuz hes the man neways i love everyone i live with and i might live with sophie cuz we might get an appt witch will be cool as hell cuz i dont want to bother annie living at her house even though she doesnt care but i do she wont take money from me so i want to live on my own she wont take money from me!!! so i love you all and lizz talked to me which was cool so until next time ill make a good one when im not drunk sry fellows until next time when i dont have to work which prolly wont happen ill update sometime keep the ties tight peace out ilu aystin call me u dumb bitch i love you all take care peace peace Mood: drunk



	2005.08.03 16.15 refreshed Life is better then before i guess im doing good now, thanks melissa Burnt and i like it peace peace Bona Mood: rejuvenated



	2005.07.27 02.38 life-less Today was a day i will never forget but prolly never remember either i have never felt this depessed about my life i dont know what is wrong with me its prolly just a bad trip i guess but my car is falling to crap my college tuition got all fucked up so now im not going to school in the fall i guess and that sucks a lot but for some reason i feel im missing something in my life but its been there for a long time i think i understand what it is i miss my home but where is my home? i tried living with mike for a while but i didnt seem to do the trick, then i moved in with my dad hoping that it would bring my closer to home and even tho i love them to death i still feel that something is missing could it be the fact that i dont know how my mom is doing and the fact that ive been running from all the realities of my life? my body has been drained of all its happy thoughts today everytime something even started to look up something else came along and crashed it all to hell i want to go home only i dont know what to do im prolly stressed from working to much and getting know where i hate the path that my life is going and for some reason i do nothing at all to change it at the rate im going i have a feeling something really bad is going to happen to me all the signs are here for distaster im contiplating running away from this all but i dont know what i can do i need something to happen to make my feel like im doing something right here but i dont think i am i have millions of questions constantly running throught my head with out one single answer not one. i thinking im falling faster then i ever have before feel like ive wasted my time i moved back here to be close to my brother and i never even see him i dont talk to my mom and i miss her so much this is the first time in my life ive cried because i want to talk to my mom and i cant i feel like a fucking pussy i just wish everything could go back to the way it used to be when my family was close i got to see my true friends and live life know it would be ok but its not ok ne-more and it never will be im hoping for a past that has gone and wont come back this world has fucking gone to hell i cant excape this world is sucking the will to live right out of me but im going to wake up tommarrow and do the same this i always do show no emotion to neone try to be myself like theres nothing wrong with me wow am in such a denile that it makes me sick to admit it i hope tomm is better i guess thats all i can say hope i didnt scare to many of you away whatever



	2005.07.24 03.35 When I think about you, i touch myself well well another day another buck comming off back to back 12 hour plus days hell yea ill be rolling in the cash.....yea i wish but neways life is still life wishin' the mom would get out and what not but eh shit happens i went to dave blooms house last night it was an after hours party after the concert at the shell which i hear kicked madd ass but it was alright there i met a lot of fucked up people that of course knew my mom wow who would have thought? then i got pretty drunk yea what else is new luckily Kayleigh called me and woke me up because i had to go to work which would have sucked if i was late oh yea ive been hanging out with this melissea girl madd cool love talking to her i miss my little brother havnt seen him in a while and i miss the fam out in churchville but ill get some time adventually to see them all o yea my noni came into the lumberyard for lunch i was glad to see her well im tired, very tired so until next time keep ur balls of the ice Bona Mood: indescribable



	2005.07.13 15.00 Office Space Well the last two days were kinda wierd i spend most of them sleeping and working but i also made some time to hang out with a few old friends Blake was here and after being in Canada that long i think hes starting to look Canadian but oh well i guess shit happens I also was woken up by Age not once but twice she seems much better and i had fun hanging out with her, i also saw Danny at the lumberyard and when we were leaving taco bell i saw him so my him and Age drove around a burned one it was a good time i got his number so will party out a little more well last night i got a little drunk with my friend Jcox that was wierd the cable kept going in and out. yea the last 2 days have been slow but ive been working so its alright i guess luckily i only have to bar bitch tonight so i only have to work from 10 - 3am which is not bad at all for me well bright lights, late nights, good fights peeeeeeeeeeeace Bona Mood: flirty



	2005.07.10 23.54 BONG Well today was a good day becuase i didn't have to work accually everyday i dont have to work is a good day anyways i slept until 1:30 pm which was freaking amazing i took Annie (casey's mom) out to lunch but b4 we left to check out that new mexican resturant on 332 right b4 clovermeadow where i live, but anyways I was talking to kari in her room and i left to go down stairs and Annie screamed so i turned to look and shes running down the hall back to her room butt naked lol the crazy part is i dont think that was the first time its happened since ive been friends with casey way back in camelot anyways the mexican food was amazing and they give you corn chips and salsa as soon as u sit down and its cheap and u get so much food and its so worth it trust me, after that my friend matt called me and i hung out with him for a while then came back and hung out with the subject of this update then called my good friend Marc Peterson and walked to his friends house and and saw a couple of old friends then me and Marc headed to the movie theatre to watch batman but i saw alyssa and her boyfriend so we decided to see fantastic 4 instead it wasn't great but better then anything else i could have been doing at the time oh yeah i also got called in early to work again tomm o well Melissa called me today that was cool overall a pretty relaxed day something i needed alright well until next time keep ur pants on bona Mood: relaxed



	2005.07.10 03.25 ahhh Well this is going to be short and sweet becuase i worked 15 hours today and im very tired i didnt get home until 7 30 am the night/day so i did it all on about 4 hours of sleep so not cool at all but i was at leahs house with her bf matt melissa and sammy lippa, oh yea jenny was there to it was i good time i had a lot of fun and then work was work i cooked until 10 then bar bitched until 3 15 yea every minute counts but i can barly keep my eyes opened so im ganna go pass out with a tub of ice cream and some music until next time peace the fuck out Bona Mood: sleepy



	2005.07.08 03.27 The first one To begin with I have the grammer of a fucking 10 year old so you won't see the perfect of typing maybe mispelled words or sometimes miss a word entirly making everything seem like complete non-sence and whatnot well lets see its 3 30 in the morning and I didn't get out of work until about 1am It was gay the boss fired a kid so i had to do dishes all night which sucked ass not only that but i had to do basicly everything else too trust me it was one of the worst days of my life. For you people who don't know i work at the Lumberyard bar and grill right now im the in the happiest of moods but i guess shit happens and it will get better. Currently I'm living with the Bloom family which is awesome they are wonderful people and i love them all. I don't have a girlfriend at the moment which surprisenly feels good (no offence to any of you ladies) in the fact then when your not with a girl you never have drama and boy do i hate drama The 2 ladies that i miss hanging out with are both out of the state. Austyn, The girl who above all loves herself more than anyone i think thats why she always has a good time know matter what unless she dicides to drink a little to much but we all love her, i mean i stole the womans car and she stills talks to me from the 80,000 boats to the jet skis and not to mention hot tubs and swimming pools this girl has the life we all want shes taking acting classes in Cali right now tell me thats not sweet shit well i miss hanging out with her(she knows the way to a mans heart, his belly she always bakes me and casey all sorts of treats shes awesome!)and i cant wait till she comes back Melissa, wow long time shes in North Carolina living it up on the beach, hope she gets a nice tan down there, she was an old girlfriend which we had a great time together, accually come to think about it shes the only exgirlfriend ive ever had that i still talk to, neways she has the heart of an angel she help me thought the worst of times even tho i didnt treat her good not nearly the way she should have been but she knows i love her and would do nething she wanted cant wait until she comes back either! Mood: aggravated